Hello everyone!
Welcome to my blog! You may know me elsewhere as PixelPerfectStables, or Quartercenturybreyerlover. I'm excited to finally be embarking on my blog journey! Hopefully, this one will stick (I previously tried starting a blog called "The Chalky Diaries" in 2016, and didn't get beyond the first post- oops)!
I am a 30 year old hobbyist from the USA, and I have enjoyed model horses for over 20 of those years! I am primarily an OF Plastic Breyer collector and shower, though I dip my toes into other parts of the hobby once in a while. Collectibility is a particular niche interest of mine. I expect that many posts here will feature topics relating to Breyers, collectibility, and their history.
To be honest, I don't have any sort of solid plan- but I have a lot of thoughts that swirl around my brain on a regular basis, so why not give them a space to be explored?
Speaking of my scattered thoughts! I was diagnosed with ADHD over a decade ago, and I'm still struggling to find out how my reality fits in with how society thinks I should be. Model horses have always made me feel like I have a place where I am accepted (and honestly some folks might not even be aware of my diagnosis). I can participate in the hobby in ways that are comfortable to me, at my own pace. I do also experience anxiety, which tends to stem from the ADHD symptoms and both play off each other sometimes. I very rarely have a depressive episode. Outside of that, I'm not aware of any other mental health issues, nothing diagnosed anyway.
Because model horses have helped me so much, I want to be somewhat candid in this blog about how I am feeling and dealing with things at times. I hope that being honest about my experiences can provide some help for other people who are in the same situation as me, to let them know they are not alone.
One thing I struggle with, both in the hobby and outside of it, is maintaining attention to/interest in projects (shocker, right? Haha!) It's the reason my last blog never had more beyond that one entry. I always have multiple projects/ideas I'm working on or interested in at any one time. This helps me to not get burned out on anything, but it can also be really overwhelming and easy to forget about projects if I put them down for too long.
My most successful project ever has to be my live show, "New England Novice Extravaganza". Helping novices enter the live show aspect of the hobby, have fun, and succeed is one of the most important things to me. I didn't have very many options available to me as a young teenager, and I jumped into Open probably at least a year or two before I was really ready. I am passionate about giving newcomers, especially younger folks the opportunities I didn't have. This particular project is very "concrete" though, as it has a formula for preparing that I am familiar with, dates and deadlines, and of course the knowledge that others are counting on me to pull it off.
Most of my other projects are things I choose to do myself, they might have dates/deadlines assigned at some point, but those are all chosen by me and for the most part, tend to be arbitrary.
My brain is a very contradictory being. I thrive in chaos, but I also can't abide it. I work best with a schedule, deadlines, and instructions from someone other than me, but I also kind of hate being tied down with a schedule even though I know I function best with having one. There are a lot of opposites I have to deal with. I'm still on a journey to find out what "balance" is, haha!
So I really have no idea what kind of posting schedule I will have...presumably, there will be times I will be more inspired to write than others. I notice most folks who write on a regular basis tend to post at least 1-2 times per week. And depending on how much time I have, and what the topic is, the lengths may be all over the place, too. I tend to ramble and go off on tangents if I'm not paying attention, but I'll try to curtail that as much as I can here!
Happy horsing, and I hope to speak to you again soon!
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